I had a chance to interview Christine and Aaron Kahan, who recently wrote a book called Navigating the Road of Infertility,
recounting their four-year emotional roller coaster including
respective surgical procedures, a devastating failed attempt to “Foster
to Adopt” two little girls, and a failed round of In-Vitro Fertilization
(IVF) and sadly another miscarriage this past month.
The
Kahans, both educators and strong child advocates, are speaking out to
discuss their personal experiences surrounding their infertility
struggles and the gross problems within the foster care system.
1.
Your journey has encompassed a variety of failed attempts to have a
child. How have you dealt with personal questions from people who aren't
close to you?
We
have been an anomaly in this area as we have dealt with all questions
with gut wrenching, open honesty no matter who was asking. The
interesting thing about this approach has been that the people asking
really then don't know what to say. After two miscarriages and being
open about those in the same fashion as our infertility struggle, people
have tended to avoid questions because they did not know what to say or
how to offer support within that loss. You can see in their eyes though
that they want to ask so normally we will bring it up in order to have
the open discussion. If not the topic lingers creating a very awkward
foundation. People struggle with so many emotions during Infertility.
Putting on a facade that everything is ok is not an additional challenge
they should have to go through.
2.
Sometimes family can feel entitled to ask more than you're willing to
share - how can you be sensitive to both your relationships with them
and your own privacy?
This
is interesting because I have a very small family while my husband's
family is very large. Most recently after a devastating second
miscarriage I was asked if I would be going to one of the cousin's baby
showers. I felt like I wanted to scream at the lack of insensitivity.
After all, I had been extremely open about my struggle and the grief
that followed losses of two babies. The cousin had no expectation that I
would be there. But instead I just reiterated as calmly as I could the
reasons why I wouldn't be there. I then found myself at the large
holiday family gathering having to make small talk and navigate
situations that could trigger trauma such as newborns or small children
playing reminding me of my two foster girls I had lost. The inability
for family members to understand how those situations might be painful
coupled with their tendency to ignore the reality of the pain we had
been through and altogether avoiding asking us about the topic was
indescribable. So before casting them all off as unsupportive and
insensitive, we try to consider their perspectives. I think it stems
from not understanding because they haven't been through it or not
knowing what to say. There is also the generational perspective of
infertility where it just wasn't discussed as it can be a very
uncomfortable topic.
To
be sensitive to your relationships with them you have to consider their
personalities. If there are family members you want to have the honest
discussion with who are open then educate them. If there are situations
that are too painful for you, give yourself permission to avoid them
knowing that the people on your family may have no understanding in what
you are going through. It is really all about your own comfort level.
As I was talking to some family members at the most recent gathering who
had the courage to inquire how I was doing, I was amazed when one aunt
had the insight for how difficult it had been for me to even be there.
And as a result of that conversation, I feel closer to her than I ever
did before.
3. Why is infertility such a hidden topic, and how can the stigma around infertility be eased?
Fertility
is so sparingly spoken about for a lot of reasons. For one thing,
generations ago when the population was really just a fraction of what
is today, having a baby was expected. This includes pretty much all
countries and cultures. Find a mate, be fruitful and multiply. It was
then to be considered that, if you couldn't have a baby, there was
something wrong with you. Society would ostracize those who could not
bring to term. However, as time has progressed our species has blossomed
into billions upon billions of people. Now, many, many times more
couples (1 out of 6) are suffering through this painful and
heartbreaking process. The more couples enduring fertility treatment
speak of the realities and heartbreak of the process, the more of a
network of such people will be woven. It is only then that we will be
able to move beyond the time of the infertility taboo.
4. What are some challenges particular to male partners dealing with infertility struggles?
The
struggles, when talking about male infertility, are quite real. In my
experience the social and mental issues with this particular problem
aren't often thought about. The guy isn't the one getting stuck with
needles on a morning basis. The man isn't sitting in that chair with his
feet in stirrups as a doctor probes their belly. However, a much over
looked fact; the man if he is a supportive partner, will have to be
there. He is the one that has to put a (figurative ) metric ton of steel
metal into his girlfriend or wife's belly. The guy holds his gals hands
as the doctor performs their procedures. The men in these relationships
are good, determined men. However they are looked upon in a much more
forgetful light as if their emotions are not as important throughout
this process. The male perspective is also overlooked in miscarriage.
Although we males are not in the spotlight on the table we also endure
the spectrum of emotions but are not able to as openly show it due to
society's image that we must remain strong and silent,
5. How can people be sensitive in offering support to those dealing with infertility?
No comments:
Post a Comment