Parenting Pointers: "Mommy Brain"

Exerpted from E! News blogger Holly Madison at http://www.eonline.com/news/748637/holly-madison-baby-blog-2-the-pregnancy-symptom-no-one-talks-about

After giving birth and (kind of) getting the hang of feeding and nurturing my child, I started to notice how troubling forgetful I had become. I would leave the house and forget two out of the five things I needed to bring with me. My husband would ask me for an important favor and I would completely space on it. I would forget about obligations, things that had been on my calendar for months. It wasn't something that happened just a few times, it happened regularly and it was embarrassing. Sometimes I would want to cry because I would feel so stupid or because I had let someone down with my forgetfulness.

Sure, I had been prepared for a little bit of "brain mush," as some describe it. Even the most common pregnancy guides will list forgetfulness as a symptom of pregnancy or postpartum recovery, but it's usually mentioned very briefly as if it's not a big deal. To me, it felt like a really big deal. It felt scary. It felt like one of my major organs, in this case my brain, was starting to fail me in a way I had never experienced and it was frightening. Some of my friends who had gone through a similar experience assured me that it would go away. Some insisted that it doesn't and only gets worse the more kids you have. The latter thought was terrifying. It was as if brain cells decided to hitchhike out of your body along with the baby.

My Google searches on the topic didn't do too much to reassure me. There was no definitive answer on how long this brain warp was supposed to last. There wasn't even much on why this was happening to me-sure, lack of sleep took most of the blame, but I've pulled some all-nighters in my time and while I might not be the sharpest tool in the shed after those, that was nothing like what I was going through after having a baby. 

The "mommy brain" stories shared online seemed to be mostly cutesy, "aw, shucks" stories of ladies looking around forever for a pacifier, only to realize it had been in her baby's mouth the whole time, or things of that nature.

Does this bother anyone else as much as it bothers me? I pondered. Was it just me? I wondered why people weren't sharing more stories. Hadn't there been instances of someone really screwing up at work because of the brain fog or perhaps making a major mistake that they were then judged for?

If it happens and people don't want to talk about it, I GET IT. The last thing women need is a stereotype suggesting childbirth reduces your mental capabilities when they are getting ready to return to their jobs. I don't even want to think about how that would impact the issues women already deal with in the workplace, such as equal pay, securing adequate maternity leave, or being judged for taking time to pump breast milk during the work day. But there is something lonely about silence, too, for then you start to wonder am I the only one? And what do I do about this?

Well, in case anyone out there reading this is feeling something like what I felt, or went through something similar, here's a story for you about me messing up at work. 

I was filming a small part in a movie. I did my first scene with no problems. As the sun was setting, it was time to shoot my second (and last) scene of the day. I quickly memorized my little paragraph of lines and reported to set. We blocked the scene and were called together to run the lines a few times right before cameras started to roll. By the time it was my turn to deliver my lines, I completely froze.

I couldn't believe what was happening-my mind had gone totally blank! The lines that I thought I had etched in my mind just a few seconds ago seemed like they had been locked away irretrievably in some remote cavern of my brain.

 

On the second rehearsal, the same exact thing happened! I was completely humiliated. Suddenly I was certain that I would never work in this town again.

These people must think I'm so stupid! I fretted.

This embarrassment hit me where it hurt. I pride myself on always being prepared. It is important to me to show that I am grateful for the opportunity I have been given and that I respect the cast and crew's time by being ready.
 

The next time I saw my doctor, I asked if the hormones were to blame for what had happened on set, and she said that absolutely that was a possibility. Also, it's good to know that when it comes to the post-partum experience some of us go through, an excess of cortisol (the stress hormone), left over in the body after pregnancy is thought to be a possible contributor to the "momnesia" some parents feel.

In conclusion, if you are feeling something close to what I experienced, here are some of the things I did to help myself come out of the fog:

1. Become a List Junkie: Make notes on your phone, keep a traditional day planner or journal, leave Post-Its everywhere. Keep a special place near your door to set your diaper bag every day and post a check list somewhere nearby of all the things you can't leave the house without.
2. Exercise Every Day: I know what you are thinking: when? But even if it's just sprinting around the block a few times or pulling up a short Youtube yoga video when you have a few free minutes can get the blood pumping to the brain enough to make a difference.
3. Stop Worrying!: Cortisol, one of the hormones that possibly triggers the forgetfulness in the first place, spikes when you stress. Remind yourself that you are strong and capable and only so much of life is within your control, anyway. Worrying is a waste of time.
4. Upload a New Game on Your Phone: One way you can make your brain work in ways it's not used to is by downloading a new game, preferably one that requires hand eye coordination and one dissimilar to games you already play. This is a quick and easy way to switch gears mentally when you find a spare moment.
5. Learn a Second Language With Your Baby: Why not pick up some dual language story books or sign language flashcards to share with your baby? The interaction promotes bonding, can be soothing, and if the language is a new one for you, it's an easy way to stretch your brain while on mom duty.
6. Fish Oil: One of the health care professionals I visit recommended "copious amounts of fish oil" to help combat my brain fatigue. I took fermented cod liver oil capsules (sounds lovely, doesn't it?) several times a day, and I feel it helped me get back to normal. If you are a vegetarian, try algea supplements, flax or chia seeds.